09/08/24 Dream: I was woken up early so I don’t have much of this dream, unfortunately. But I’ll just write down what I remember. I was within a relatively large house, and I remember that I was having orientation for being a maid. The woman who would become my mistress was the one whom was taking my measurements for the uniform, and I remember feeling a bit relieved at first that I wasn’t officially her underling yet. Specifically, I remember that she told me a few random rules as she was taking my bust measurements up, such as “Don’t let your voice become too masculine when talking to me,” “Use an ashtray if you’re gonna smoke,” “Don’t get high if it’ll interfere with your work,” etc., which I all mostly agreeed with anyway. I remember that I’d just nodded to all of them, and after that was done, she ducked out of the room real bit. I sat there on her bed, looking around at the room for a bit, which had a queen sized bed and many old timey furnishings like an oil lamp & real wood desk. I’m not sure how long I sat there, but it felt like maybe an hour or so, before she came back in with a uniform and told me to put it on. I complied, and somehow it fit me damn near perfectly, and I stared at myself in the mirror while feeling quite validated and suitably feminine. I was fixing my hair really quick, when she handed me a contract, I didn’t know what was on it exactly, but the gist of it was that I had to stick with the maid service and I couldn’t leave without permission: making me more-or-less her property, so as long as she kept up her end of the bargain by paying me in food/drinks/clothes/SRS fund/etc. I thought this was a more than fair offer, so I signed it and handed it back to her. At this point, I remember starting to address her as “mistress” and always bowing before her when she’d had a request, without fail. She seemed to like how quick I was catching on, but she also felt bad when I had ADHD moments such that she’d provide pills to improve my workload. I saw no fault with this, so I just took the pills, and they really helped me keep focus for like making food and such. From here, life kinda became routine, and I just have a bunch of fragmented memories of deep cleaning carpet, smoking cigarettes in the foyer’s ashtray, feeding the dog, cooking food, etc., with ocasional interactions with my mistress and her girlfriends, along with rarely men as well, interspersed throughout my memories. The mood felt pleasant, almost like a sitcom, as the dynamic of me being submissive and pitiable and my mistress being dominant and somewhat caring seemed to play off each other pretty well. As such, nothing really notable tended to happen that I can specifically remember, until one day, I got a few days off for some random holiday I can’t really remember. The main detail I remember being different though, is that I wasn’t a maid on this day, but I was instead chilling with my mistress & her sisters (in the confidant sense, not the biological sense) as an equal, and I was generally getting along well. I felt a bit awkward, but not too weird, as I loaded up on glass after glass of wine. At some point, I spilled red wine on the couch, and then some guy joked “looks like you have to clean that up later, hahaha!” And it made me rather mad, so I excused myself to the bathroom. I started crying a little bit as I smoked a cigarette out the window, and I remember my thoughts were mostly empty aside from the ocasional bit of cringe. I was generally solemn, as I mostly did nothing but keep smoking with a hyponotic consistency, until I eventually woke up into the real world suddenly due to my roommate’s video. I awoke in a still somewhat tired/grumpy mood, but I felt content otherwise.
This dream appears to symbolize feelings of control, submission, routine, and a desire for validation within a structured environment. Being in a large house and undergoing orientation to become a maid could reflect a sense of readiness or preparation for a new role or responsibilities in waking life. Your mistress in the dream represents authority and rules, with the process of fitting into the uniform symbolizing a feeling of acceptance and belonging within certain social expectations or norms.
The contract you signed in the dream, making you essentially the property of your mistress in exchange for certain benefits, could indicate a willingness to conform or commit to a particular path or relationship in exchange for security or material gains. The dynamic between you and your mistress reflects power differentials and the nuances of control and submission, with the routine activities like cleaning and interacting with others reinforcing a sense of order and duty.
The scene where you are with your mistress and her sisters as equals on a day off suggests a shift in dynamics and a moment of relaxation or camaraderie outside of the established roles. The spilled wine and the subsequent joke mocking you may represent feelings of embarrassment or irritation when boundaries are crossed or when you are reminded of your designated position.
Overall, this dream may reflect a desire for structure, validation, and a sense of purpose within a controlled environment, as well as a longing for approval and acceptance from authority figures. The mixed emotions of satisfaction, awkwardness, anger, and contemplation within the dream mirror a complex interplay of emotions and desires in waking life.